Trust

I have always found trust an easy thing to feel. For the most part, people make it easy to trust them - more often than not because they are trustworthy in general. And, of course, when a person breaks that trust, you can simply know to never feel that level of comfort with them again.

But what happens if the person who breaks the trust is someone you are intimately entwined with? How does that lost bond ever heal? The easy answer is that the other party heals it with love and kindness and by humbling themselves. They work hard to be sure you know you can trust them in the future. They understand the seriousness of what they have broken. They walk gently and understand you can't magically trust them again. They think before they act. They make it clear their respect and love for you is their number one priority in your lives.

And if they don't heal it? Then the opposite happens and the relationship dwindles and deteriorates until it is incapable of repair. That happens when the actions of the other person continue to produce stress, fear, tears, and mistrust. I would think this an easy concept. At least easier than many others I can think of. But the offending party would have to be sincere and be able to look outside themselves, with no expectation of if, when or how the trust grows again. They would simply have to be kind.

But as I write this, I realize that the facts would indicate the latter is a person who, in general, is not kind, does not love the other person, does not respect them and cannot find a positive attitude about life in general. And then that relationship isn't really a relationship of love. And the time invested, how ever many years that might be, have been wasted on something for which there is no hope.

I don't think these relatonships begin that way. I think it, sadly, just grows that way. Something or someone became broken and never cared to be whole again. I grieve because of it, but I know there is nothing more I can do. So instead, I do what I must to protect those I love and I severe that relationship with hopes and prayers that it is the right thing to do and that I am protecting us the best I can.

There has been too much pain. Too much fear and hurt and stress. Now we need peace and this is the only way I know to give that to us. Just the two of us...what once was three.